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Missy - 20 - Allen Park, MI
I am a giggly, goobery, artsy fartsy, nerdy, doe eyed musician / flower child / vixen. I like impromptu adventures in the wild and dancing around in my undies to upbeat tunes when no one is home while pretending I’m a DJ.
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Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
Why dont you want me anymore
Why dont you look at me like Im precious anymore
When I still adore you, all of you:
The curves of your cheekbones,
The smell of your skin
Or the heaviness of your lips,
(But not the way they seem to hesitate on mine)
Why does it seem youve become so uninspired
And why so easily
When you still make me weak at the knees
When you smile at me
Or your hand brushes up against my leg,
But not like you used to,
Intentionally making contact for the sake of being close,
Pulling my head against your chest
And burying your face in my hair
(Whens the last time you wanted to)
I really fear you dont care if I’m around
And youve made no motion to dispell my uncertainties
How did this happen so quickly
Why am I so paranoid
When did you stop finding me fascinating
I dont feel important, I feel expendable
What is wrong with me
Why dont you want me anymore
Maybe I dont want me anymore
And Im projecting onto you
Im sorry.
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My skin is burning, but Ill be okay. Productive melancholy. Cue; “Seasonal Blues, How to Overcome”
I almost said “I wish my life had an undo button”, but then I thought about it and now Im glad it isnt that easy. Nothing is easy, but the energy you put into your work can gain a personal significance if you at least accept that life is trial and error and sometimes hardships may come, but you have the ability to make the choice to either let it disable you or enlighten you. Well, I’ve been moving steadily forward this whole time and I cant stop, I wont stop now. Theres too much wonder to be found and so much opportunity in change. Transformation isnt a smooth path, it’s the natural path. Im okay. Everything is okay. Everything is going to only get better from here on out because I am choosing to hold on and keep fighting to understand myself and others. I hope you all will too.
Because im a man, you say, as you try to explain why we cant just cuddle, why I cant stay, why you think I should be sucking down semen without voicing dissent and wiping my mouth as the screen door slams behind me and im left with the silence of my insignificance. Because im a man, you say, as you blame your bodys discomfort on your attraction to mine and demand I offer service to you for my devilish ways. Because im a man, you say, but I think a real man would beg to differ. You think your experience with sticky bodies, sweat drenched and clashing, alleviate your itching addiction for inflated ego and justify the means by which you obtain your fix, but a real man would beg to differ, would never say they fufill their role of masculinity or dominance in the disgrace and disposal of a woman. Because you’re a user, I say, of excuses and bodies of flesh for personal gain you’re a loser, I say, and I won’t contribute to your addiction to short bursts of physical euphoria and I wont be the ashes, empty bottles or hypodermic needle that you throw away.
The man.
8 MONTH OLD DEAF BABY’S REACTION TO COCHLEAR IMPLANT BEING ACTIVATED
Why do you think this is beautiful, OP? I’m just asking.
Actually, that was the point I was going to make to them: that you should. And you should expose them to Deaf culture as well as mainstreamed and let them make their own choices.
augh so sick of this video, for real. I need it to stop showing up on my dash. #notafanofcochlearimplants
I see it 9 or 10 times a day on the “deaf” tag and honestly, I’m just gonna start asking these people why the find it beautiful so I can educate them. It’s really starting to annoy me.
I mean, a) an eight month old will smile at nearly any sensory input, so it’s not that special or impressive and b) I bet he wasn’t smiling and giggling when they drilled holes in his skull…
Indeed.
Saw a video a while back of this autistic kid saying ‘I love you’ to his mum for the first time. He clearly had been trained and prompted to say it by the ‘child psychologist’ present in the video. Loads of people commented on it and said it was sweet and beautiful, even though the poor kid looked hella uncomfortable at all the crying and clapping and did not look at all happy about being forced to say something. It was entirely for the parent’s benefit.
Fuck Cochlear Implants.
Fuck them.
What’s the problem everyone had with cochlear implants? I… I don’t even understand.
If I can give my deaf baby a chance to hear, why wouldn’t I? I just… I don’t even know. It seems like just more Tumblr bullshit.
^Thank you.
It’s not like the baby will remember the surgery. Not like the baby will remember being deaf. It’s a miracle that they are able to do such a thing. It’s amazing. It’s beautiful. It gives the child a chance to live life normally.
^^
THANK YOU, creepie and seg <3
Honestly.
This is exactly how it was with my little sister, who is autistic. If everyone listened to what the other tumblrs have been saying about just exposing them to a certain culture and letting them make their own decisions, my sister wouldn’t be where she is today. She is a perfectly functional member of society and would not have been if not for the several therapists she had to see as a baby and toddler.
If my baby was deaf, yes, I WOULD give it the chance to hear, as we now have the resources to do. Children of the past weren’t as lucky as children today. Years ago, my little sister would have been locked up in an institution for the entirety of her life. We would rarely see her, rarely speak of her, barely care about her.
It’s new inventions and innovations like cochlear implants, speech therapists, corneal implants, and the like that allow those who have been seen as detriments to society to become full members.
No, I don’t believe it was an easy thing for the baby to go through the surgery. It wasn’t exactly easy for my little sister to go through all her therapies too. But we wanted to give her the chance to be able to communicate her thoughts, feelings, wants, and needs with the people who cared about her.
TL;DR- IT’S IMPORTANT TO GIVE EVERYONE A CHANCE.
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOR, you could let them learn sign and be active in Deaf culture and be normal ANYWAY. Who the fuck are YOU to say that being hearing is to be “normal”?
I’m autistic and I can communicate my feelings perfectly well. My methods of communicating said feelings just tend not to be as simple for non-autistic folk to get. I’d rather folks put the fucking effort in than force me to be ‘normal’ for their own convenience.
I mean, I’m not saying it’s not normal to be deaf, but being able to hear, say, a car speeding around the corner about to knock me off of my ass while bike riding cos he blew a stop sign sure came in handy.
#1: EYES.
#2: WHEN YOU’RE DEAF YOU HAVE SUPER-SENSITIVE SKIN.
#3: WALK/BIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SIDE OF THE ROAD. IT WORKS. YOU SEE THE CAR, NOT HEAR IT. IT’S CALLED “IMAGINAAAAAAAAATION.”
http://faunslabyrinth.tumblr.com/post/9481465299/apparently
I’m very sorry to have offended you with my lack of information, but please try and DISCUSS this with me instead of yell or become angry as I am a very open person and willing to learn. Yelling at me for being misinformed doesn’t make me want to learn, it makes me hurt that you would rather yell at me for not knowing these kinds of things instead of be patient and explain to me in a calm and informing tone why I was wrong to say what I did.
